Confused

I wake up early this morning. I can't sleep properly the whole night. Something wrong with me, I can't do anything properly, dropping things all over. All I can do just listen to oldies songs, which I can't live without. I don't know what should I do, who should I talk to, since everyone also busy with their lives. I can't be selfish too. I choose to keep everything to myself. Although sometimes I feel like giving up and do stupid things, but I should not behave like childish I'm not kids anymore I always think more than once before I decide to do anything.If I look back until now i manage to go through everything, I'm proud of myself anyway..someone said that I'm different.