How to be happy?

How to be happy?

Definitely everybody wanna be happy but how? Every day as i grow older more challenges i have to face. Sometimes i don't feel strong to go on. Apart from being lonely i'm not happy. Feel i'm lack of attention. Everybody is busy with their own things..i can't blame them too. Sometimes i feel life is so unfair, some poeple went through easy life but some went through hard life. Whether its fair or not i don't think i'm the right person to judge. Normally human never satisfied with what they have. Anyhow i'm not asking for impossible things...just a little bit of happiness because i can't fake a smile when i'm sad. I don't know who totalk to when i'm sad.

Is crying is the best solution?

I believe when i cry everything out i will feel better. If i can sell my tears i can be a millionaire by now. No matter how much i cry also it can't be healed. Why everybody go against me? Why i can't make my own decision? Is it i don't have the right to choose what i want? I just don't understand adult, i'm an adult but i'm referring to others who older than me. Just because they are older than me, they see world earlier than me that does not mean they always right. Since human do always make mistakes and we learn through that ever since we were young.

I hate rules..

Rules are meant to be broken...yes it is. Lately rules in campus got some changes and i don't feel uncomfortable. Today when i want to enter library around 1.30p.m. they wanna check my handbag. What can i bring in it, time bomb is it? Bottle canot bring in, anyway i'm gone drink there la, i do realize that i'm a civilized kind of person. I did ask the security why normally never check, she said we must check...not acceptable at all, they don't even know what they are doing. Today before 12 p.m. i enter library they never check also. Is it this rules just effective after lunch time..lol..so ridiculous. Then i do whatever stuff i suppose to do in library. When i go out also they wanna check, my handbag is small anyway which textbook can fit it. Feel like now library is the last place to go. The reason i bring handbag so that i don't have to leave mybag outside but they wanna to check, my things inside is personal anyway..i hate people touch my things. Do i need to ask am i look like a thief? I can buy what i want no need to steal, my parents give me money ok.


How to be happy like this? Small things they bring up. I don't know if after this they wanna control students outfit. Totally not acceptable.

Tiring day..

Today my schedule rather pack...before class starts at 10a.m. i went to return book in library, overdue just one day due to their policy that i can't renew. That menas i have to pay 20 cents but they don't have change and expect i got 20 cents, they said just open shop...who wanna bring coins anyway. Tutorial with Mr. Aras as usual he won't let us copy since he will upload so he want us to concentrate. Most of the time he likes us to think and communicate with him. Done 2 tutorials, friday no class. Next class at 12p.m. i follow kalai to take his shoes and we continue chit chat then walk all the way to fosee. Mr. Liew class as usual also students at the back tallking non stop, pity him but i salute his effect to make us understand through his drawings so we don't need to memorize sentences. Around 1.30p.m. finish already. My whole body feel pain, i bought twiggies, mineral water and panadol. At 2p.m. got OOC1 lab...see Mr. Aras again but it's ok i like the way he's explaining. Partner with Kalai, we start the experiment smoothly but too bad the fiber ot problem we get wrong value...Mr. Aras check everything for us, change the transmitter, receiver and multimeter at last the fiber. Just small thing that make changes. Then we proceed...report send in 2 weeks can do in groups, thanks to Mr. Aras. Finish around 4p.m. Then i went next door to find Mr. Muslim, finally since i've been looking for him the whole week just for the sake of his approval because the technician insisted me to find him. Next week is my new date, what to do group 9 full already..better early then do lab on the day i have midterm..thanks Mr.Muslim. It's time to go home, i'm so hungry. I bought 'cendawan goreng' at ep...many people buying RM2 for 3 sticks..alot..i'm really full then. After that watch and fall asleep until my mother came back from work...it's like a routine already. Overal today is tiring but i have fun in lab today, not like always so stress...

Why humans are different?

God created this world uniquely and we human as His creation are also unique. We are created in different sizes, looks, tastes, skin colours, races, religions. The advantages when we are differennt may be applied when we looking for partners. If all guys likes the same women how this world would be..same goes for girls. No matter we are pretty or not there must be someone who willing to accept us as we are. (I believe in it).

Somehow the differences makes human fight against each other especially in terms of races and religions. Anywhere in the world we can see.

• Why humans must compare?


• Why humans always choose only their people?

This problem leads to war and etc...

As for me I like to mix with different races because we can share many things. Due to this i faced problem because not everyone can accept when different races mix together. So far no one questioned me but I know they are not satisfied. Even I have collections of english songs also people ask why no malay songs at all. I don't give a damn...I'm the one who listening. I communicate with friends using english language also got problem? Does it make me look like an alien? If I don't speak I won't improve myself, I don't care what they want to say because it is for my own good. I don't like when people only think about their own people only. We live together we must try to mix around and accept people. There's no use make enemy with people we don't even know just because of different colours and races. In my opinion we should not look at the difference between us but we should emphasize on what makes us together and stronger.

Look at those babies...how innocent they are. Different colours and races but they are just babies, we are the one who will colour their world. I know this issue racist is kinda sensitive but it's just my opinion. I want to see people together no matter what color they are.

~peace~

Alone vs. Lonely

Alone vs. Lonely

What't the different between this two words. Sound the same but has different meaning. Alone means there's no one around you, lonely on the other hand means many people around you but you feel that you're alone.

Which one is the worse?

I think both could be worse because one of it will lead to the other one. When you're alone, always alone in the end you will feel lonely.

Why human feel lonely?

Seriously I have no answer for that. I do feel lonely too. Sometimes I prefer to be alone but then i get tired of being alone because i will feel lonely too. I wish to get rid of this feelings but i failed. I can see that most of us did silly things when they are alone...even i did the same thing. When I go out try to release tension i tend to feel lonely when i walk alone seeing people with their friends, couples and families. Nowadays my parents always busy working on weekends, makes me hate home. While friends also busy with their things. The problem is why I always alone and lonely. I'm willing to be there for my friends but sometimes when i need someone there's no one there. Is it what goes around comes around? Is it I'm too nice to people?

What should human do when feel alone or lonely?

• Find some hobbies like playing games or make puzzles.
• Eat chocolate or anything.
• Find online friends.
• Blogging.
• Surf internet.
• Watch tv series that available online.
• Listening to music. (i choose oldies)

Honestly I find that none of these works when I'm too bored.

Madagascar dayzz...

Today class starts at 10 a.m. Mr. Liew conducted tutorial in lecture class today. He likes to draw alot, those antennas transmiting and receiving thing. Anyway as long as i can understand doesn't matter what he drew on the whiteboard i will copy. As usual class finish early, then i went to FET take lab sheet and get the coordinater approval for changing my lab session. I'm glad he approved. I went to mosque square and buy big apple's doughnut...and while waiting for alvin i study in library (sound so nerdy...hahaha..). We are going to watch madagascar at 2.30 p.m. but then plan changed to 4.30 p.m.

Ice blended cappucino ~yummy~

To kill the time, we eat first(means alvin eat...hehehe..). I only drink ice blended cappucino, so nice. Then of course buy buns andnext thing to came whore in cinema. We got the best location which is J7 and J8, exactly in the middle of the skrin. Anyway madagascar really hilarious, today alot of people watchig since it's already school holidays...alot of parents bringing their kids along, so noisy. Watching movie also no peace at all. I can't imagine being parents bring kids to movie.

~My seat number 8~

Thanx for the picture, it's so nice...maybe i should get a digital camera...tempting la..Anyway there's something i need more than a digital camera now.

Let's talk about madagascar...normally hollywood movie not just a movie which we watch for fun. They always put in family values and lots of morale stories in it. Those that are lacking in malaysian movies which normally empahize on just "love". Anyway word of wisdom for today "love has no boundaries" which united gloria and melman. Must watch madagascar :P Sometimes we look far to find the right one but the one we are looking for is just in front of us.

HELP ME??

I'm crawling in the dark searching for myself, looking for the strength that I have. Everybody goes through a dark life but I always ask why I have to go through hard life. I'm not rich it's ok but I hate it when I'm being humiliated and people compare me with others. Well, I'm not perfect like everyone else. I've been trying to forget and forgive. Maybe it's true that human can forgive but human can't forget what has happened. Anyhow both are hard for me. I want to let go the hate feeling that kills me silently, I don't know how the hatred feeling grows inside me. Well I don't hate anybody for no reason and I don't hate everybody. Maybe I was jealous but this does not apply to everyone. There must be a limit to be patient. Why people have to show that they are bigger and have everything and make me look like a loser. You are not a God anyway. You are just lucky that everyone is behind your back and make you look like you're the perfect person. That's the word "lucky". Other people have to work hard to be "someone" but people don't look at that "someone". Things that growing can't be stopped. It's like the cancer cells that kills silently. It's the matter how we control it. From the outside people think that I'm happy with what I have. There's no way we can judge a book by it's cover. Human never satisfies anyway. I don't know who to speak to so I choose blogging. Thanks to Alvin. When others don't understand how I feel it really hard to explain, then just let go. I want to be a better person but the path is really not easy. Why you have easy path? Why you always win?WHY?WHY?WHY?Why I can't hear anything about you. I can accept other people who's bigger than me or I can say bigger than you. Maybe because you don't deserve it. I'm sorry I can't faced you because I'm not hypocrite like you who being nice in front of me showing that you care but you don't. I hope I understand how others take it but I can't. All I'm asking stop stealing my mother from me. Maybe my mother did it for the sake of relative and your family. OMG! why have to pay it through you?? Why not someone else who I take as my sisters ?? That's I don't understand. Every excuses you gave is acceptable but not mine. It's simply not fair. I really really hope the hatred growth inside me that you created can be amputated...Ouchh?it's not a leg anyway. "Monster are not born, our words created them" quoted from the drama Frontpage. I think it's true because many people who did bad things not because they are bad but they can't handle with themselves, trying to be someone else. In the drama the guy created another individual of himself who's perfect to fight bad things people said to him,because people look down at him even his own mother. Girls he love hates him because he's ugly. See how words turn human to be monster. I don't want to be like him end up killing people..I'm still insane. I just wanna express how I feel.

hAppY dAy

As usual when i woke up in the morning my parents already went to work since ocbc is openned 7 days a week, rarely my parents get off day if there is also have to take turns. I prefer to go out rather than feel bored at home. So today actually i went out with alvin, since both of us looking for present. Then visit mbo and end up buying ticket to watch high school musical. The show at 4pm so we walk around jj and mlk mall looking for our presents.

that's for my KK

Done with our shopping then we both pose gedik at the cinema...lol

HSM poster :)

Overall, i had fun today. Perfect day...remember, happiness is a gift. Enjoy life as much as you can. As long as i never come across things that will spoil my mood then it's ok.

How you wear contact lens.

Contact lens make life easier for those who wears specs. Contact lens helps lead us to a better vision compare to specs because it covers our cornea, not like specs only restricted to front view to where we are facing. As for me, I prefer contact lense. To wear contact lense of course we need to know the basic things since we are about to insert something into our eyes.

A pair of contact lenses, positioned with the concave side facing upward.

Firstly, the person must make sure both wash hands. Then we need the solution, lens cover to store contact lens and of course contact lense itself.

Contact lense must be cleaned using the solution. Then make sure the concave side of the contact lense is facing upward(This to ensure the contact lense fits your cornea) then put inside ur eyes. ( see figure below.) before that of course you need to open your eyes as big as you can. .I find that coloured contact lense easier to wear and i can easily differentiate which one is the concave side.

Hold the contact lense using your finger .

Then you will get this.( see figure below.) The contact lense already in. That's how you wear.

Recently i bought coloured contact lense, among the colours i fell in love with green. Eventhough it's not my favourite colour and i always thought that green won't suit my skin. Even my mother get a shocked i said i bought green but the the effect change it. (see the figure below.)



Well, specially to my friend alvin..you must try contact lens its not hard to wear anyway..lol. Make your dream come true, i wanna see you with the freshlook...colored eyes.