Recently i bought this book which introduced by my friend alvin. I couldn't get it here in melaka, have to buy all the way in Sinngapore..so sad..hehe. Anyway it's a gift from someone who's hoping that this book could change my life. Normally its really hard for me to finish a book,can say i wil never continue reading it if i find it boring but this book makes me wanna read and read and read :)

Alot of things can be learnt from this book. One thing is "law of attraction" which we normally never realize it. From now on i will focus on thinking positive things which i would like to attract. I will stop thinking negative things which i don't want.

If this book can change my life..it could change ur life too :)

Smile

Michael Jackson : Smile

(A tribute to Charlie Chaplin taken from the stage version of "Smile")
Words Written by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons.
Music Composed by Charles Chaplin.
Produced by David Foster and Michael Jackson.

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you'll just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile

I really love this song..whenever i'm sad i will listen to this and it really makes me feel better. Eventhough its hard to smile but the words really meaningful to me when i listen to it.

After midterm

After EMI paper, feel so relief..the question too simple until i can't do but the question with the highest marks i think i can do perfectly..lol.Went dinner with yaya n alvin, eating pizza. 3 of us really full after that,then we chit chat since so long we never meet n outing together.

Now it't time to get close to the laptop again..hehe..play games and of course fb.

Circle of life

3 am in the morning...

I'm still unable to sleep eventhough my eyes are closed. Class at 8 a.m. What else to do? Everything is prepared for tomorrow. I decided to read chapter 1 notes since midterm is around the corner. Normally that trick will make me sleep right away but how come it's not working now ??

Finally I am sleeping (i guess tidur-tidur ayam)

I woke up even before my alarm rings.

I'm late approximately 10 mins late for class ( wasn't that bad)..the lecturer just about to start the lecture. She gave some good news which our class will be cancelled on thursday for the next 2 weeks and the bad news is good luck for midterm. Reminders not make me aware but makes me scared.

Last night..

After studying in library my a friend of mine, it's time for dinner. Met my father's old friend or should i say ex-colleuge. Then drag another friend..SO it's like a reunion to them. Quite nice listening to old times experience with some jokes. Men on my right talking about work mostly...women on my left counting grandchildren..ouchh! I guess thats the circle of life..when they were young the look for partner and get married and have kids and unfortunately now waiting for grandchilren. IT could be my circle of life to but it isn't my time yer and i hope they could understand that marriage is not everything. It's their mentality makes them like that.

However, my life has to move on no matter how they look at it and i know that i'm always different from others.

Someone annoying

Most of the time i feel annoyed with someone...is it just me or they are just annoying. I'm willing to help them but when i need help they just dissappear. Somehow others like them so what can i say, i can't complain it to anyone...just take it for like another 2-3 trimesters then i don't have to see their face anymore. Today they annoyed me alot and i feel like cutting them into pieces. I hate last minute work and i don't really have to go with their timetable, just because they have some plans this weekends they wanna make me slows down my work. Come on, its assignment,how when start working already the boss says monday is the dateline...dare to say can i submit on tuesday just because they have plans on weekends. When i have plans always people disturb, i just take it easy but why can't they help me when they have plans. I'm trying my best to like "you" but there's always flaws there so i can't. Its just weird that others did not annoys me like "you" do.

I'm always wondering how to make people listen to me because whatever i say most of the time being ignored. I realize that I am nobody that's why nobody care to listen to what i say although what i say might change many things. Thanks to anyone who does listen to me, i appreciate that they care for my voices..

What a sleepy day

teach Maths and Science in Bahasa Malaysia

Today my class at 4.30pm...feel so lazy to go but i decided to go. Class today was very informative. For the past weeks i feel very lonely and my life kinda empty..i tried to add up more activites to my schedule, one of it is to get fit and active. I went jogging quite frequently compare last i never go jogging. I watch alot of martha stewart's show and alot of things i wanna try to do. Actually i forgot that updating my blog is actually of it. Currently i'm confused about my final year project...still considering the lecturer. Anyway that was all about me.

Another current issue i wanna share is the government will change back to teach Maths and Science in Bahasa Malaysia effective 2012. Before this i did hear romours about it but i hope they won't change. What happen to vision 2020 if simple thing studying in english also they don't want. I hope our government will change the decision.

Poadcasting...

Today was abit relaxing after maths paper this morning. Believe it or not 3 papers in 2 days done just like that leaving the headache...fear...tense before taking the exam. I just got to know from a friend that actually it is allowed to complain if the schedule having 3 papers in 2 days. Anyway i went through it already..hopefully everything will be fine. I slept the whole evening and re-energized myself. Get ready to prepare for the next paper.

Despite all the tense during week exam, i do feel lonely in between. There are times that i tried not to think about those things but i failed. There are times when i know what i want but there are also times when i don't know what I want. Sometimes i feel lost..i know there's no easy things in life but human never satisfy with what they have. Thinking about what i have it's kinda tough because i don't really see it. I need others to tell me what i have that they don't have. If i look back 3 years ago..completed my diploma and most of us go their own path. Some goes find jobs, some further the studies which i did, and my best friend got married.I can't describe how lost i am when i was in beta year. I was alone..not used to it. Even after i got back from cyberjaya i still can't cope with the new environment. I feel that there are still memories around campus that never realy leaves me. I tried to be strong, find new friends doesn't matter a true friends or friends with benefits...and try to smile to people which i seldom do before. Anyhow all that makes me who i am today. Some friends said that i'm changing and I know i have changed but certain things never changed.

Now, i'm back on track...by next year i'll be graduating,hopefully everything goes well. Since everyone keep asking when do i finish studying. I'm so sick if it, do they think its easy. All they know is keep asking when i'm going to get married. It seems like most of my cousins already have their own family and some going to have own family. Good for them, it's their time. Not everybody so lucky can get what they want and I am different from others. I'm a late bloomer and i'm still learning about life. I need to find my dreams and owns the world.

I hope i can see the future.