January 7

Today is just another day that i thought i would just stay at home hiding myself from the world outside. Even i have a new neighbour beside also i haven't meet them. I only can hear baby crying most of the time and it's torturing to my ear since my mind is already in a mess,too much noise will definitely destroy my brain. Anyhow it seems like i'm not interested to know them for now, is it true we need our neighbour?? For all this while there's no one here, no neighbours..it's quite normal for me...if i call for help also nobody will hear. So, do i need them now??I'm just tired that when i need someone, no one is there but i'm always there for people in need..sounds unfair.

I'm sorry it doesn't goes well because i'm angry with the baby crying..my friend said who knows in the future she maybe a singer or whatever..i don't care anyway. I also have the thinking what if in future my daughter or son crying like that..oh no!!too early to think...way too much to think..sounds annoying. I need a break from this life because i'm not happy.

Anyway how i look this morning?

Is that a real smile or just a fake one?

I think i'm getting more chubby,is it because i eat chewing gum or because my eating habit these days...i don't know.

Anyway i decide to go out with my cousin, we went to mcd so that she can surf the net while i'm studying. I eat spicy chicken mcdeluxe and ina take double cheeseburger(it's small)...total is RM19 and few cents..it's almost RM20..i't getting expensive nowadays, infact very expensive. The price of petrol is going down but how come they still charge more...sighh..but still alot more people come and eat there although economy is bad.

Around 4pm we went home...after talking so much and i feel better. Hopefully after i get home i'm able to study. Reach home, take shower, charge my laptop battery and start blogging. While i'm surfing the net i came across this:

"Breaking Up is Just a Normal Part of Life. So you will deal with it like everyone else. Yes, breaking up is difficult--but very, very few people end up spending the rest of their days with the first boyfriend or girlfriend. Like it or not, this is a normal part of teenage and adult life, and as much as it is painful, is part of life. Sometimes you will be the dumper, sometimes you might be the dumpee. We all have heartbreak. It hurts. But we all survive it, and you (and your ex) will too. Really. "

Is it true?? I'm sure most of doesn't want to go through that in life. I saw most people have go through that around me..so is my turn coming??Is it possible to stay single for the rest of my life. It sounds stupid. Anyway, what i want in life thats what i should know. I don't know where life gone bring me in future, i hope somewhere i can find success. Another 1 year plus too graduate..then starting my life officially as an adult where i must learn to earn myself and be able to buy things for my mother and bring her around the world..lol..she should know that i always say i will bring her.

Btw, today is january 7..means another 2 months i'm getting older..lol..it's just a number that going up right..everybody grow old somehow. Just hope this year i'l becoming more mature compatible with my age :P

I can't wait to finish my last paper on saturday and i start my hunting for new hp...hehe :)