I HATE SOMEONE

I hate u...why i can't tell u i hate u. Why everyone care for u.Since we were small u always wanna compete with me. U wanna make sure i wont be better than u. Including love, u take everything from me. I have no one else. U always try to make my life miserable. Maybe it's lucky that u always get what u want in life but i hate that it effects my life totally. Who are u to judge me what i want to do, who i want to choose. Ur not perfect though. I'm sick of it. I feel wanna go away from everyone and make new life, meet new people. So that u will have all the attention with no worries that i'm exist. If only my grandmother still around she won't let me feel this way. In this u lost to me, u have less love from her. She love me so much,even until her last breath she ask for me. Now also i can feel that ur taking my mother's love, why suddenly she care about u. Who the hell are u??Maybe i'm invisible that people can't see me. It's ok i let u have all the limelight that u wanted until there no more u can take from me. I know nobody can understand why i hate u so much but something that grows inside me getting bigger as i said since we were small. When it will explode i don't know. When the time come it's gone hurt either me or other people.